I actually have not forgotten about this little spot. Truth be told, it got hard writing because of life circumstances. Law school is hard, yo. Hard on the student, hard on the family. And social media made it hard not to feel like I’m not measuring up, often. Hard not to compare and feel bad that we still don’t own a house, that we can’t afford a lot of fun activities we would love to, for our kids.
I also mostly have just wanted to share thoughts, but I know people see these things for cute posts about families. Not wanting to delve into my overanalysis. Oi vey!
But truly I like writing. It’s enjoyable. And I’m hoping to find that happy medium between sharing, but not feeling like I’m competing, in life; and maybe sharing a bit of both (thoughts and general happenings).
There’s something kind of annoying about Instagram and Facebook, to me. It almost feels like we do these little blurbs, with pics, and in action are saying “Care about me! Just look! Real fast! I promise it won’t take long!” And if it IS too long, or not interesting enough, we scroll past it.
I still love what people I care about share, because it’s much better than no contact! But I think I yearn for real connection, with a smaller number of people.
So! I think I’m going to try to bring blogging back into my life. Share my family’s updates, without feeling like I’m begging people to not forget me. (For the record that’s not what I think others are doing, it’s just a bit how I feel when I share things. This isn’t a judgment against others, at all. Please keep sharing if you do!)
I’d also love if it didn’t make anyone feel bad...the way incredible homes and accomplishments sometimes do, for me. But it’s a fine line! Everyone wants to share wha t they’re proud of. So...hopefully I can find a happy medium. Keep it authentic, mainly.
So! Fingers crossed!
